~Aidenn-Faolan

I realized today that life is good.

That may sound like a bit of an odd thing for me to say, and especially to base a journal update around... seeing as my last legitimate entry hasn't been for about 10 months. A lot of crap has gone down since then, and the majority (and, in my opinion, the worst) has happened within the past two. Things that made me redefine the way I look at people in general, and my friends specifically. Things where, people who I thought I trusted, ended up turning around and made me doubt the value of people in whole, which would have caused me to become a more cynical person than I am (which is a bit of a stretch). But as a result of those things, I finally feel comfortable for the first time in my life. I feel at peace. I'm living in my own place, with a person that I trust. The core group of my friends are people that I know that, if it came down to it, they would put their life on the line for me. They would do anything within their power to make sure that I am taken care of, as long as it doesn't interfere with keeping their family alive. Trustworthy, loyal, dependable people. The drama here is small and easily dealt with. We look out for one another, and that's a feeling I'm still trying to get used to. I never quite realized before that the friends I hung out with on a daily basis before moving up to Illinois, and then again when I moved back down, were not true friends. Sure, some may have history with me. Some may lend me a few dollars when I was hungry, or possibly give me a ride somewhere, as long as I could chip in for gas... but usually, they were friends with conditions. The people I'm with now are... different. They don't expect anything of me, other than that I am myself, and that I use a bit of common sense... but since everyone uses common sense and doesn't get ourselves in bullshit scenarios, that's not a problem.
It's strange trying to adjust to having people you can truly trust around you at all times. You spend so much time, looking at the world and trying to figure out how it's going to collapse around you, that when you finally have the solid foundation beneath you, you take a while to adjust. About a month ago, in one single day, I saw the extent of the people I deal with. I saw how people you thought you can trust would rather send you to jail, and that people who you were simply okay with truly care about you. Doubt and trust, ignorance and wisdom, bad and good judgment, and adamant people and those willing to take a chance. Each of those people have received exactly what they deserved from that day. Each of their lives have changed to reflect the decisions they made.
But enough about that. Things are now peaceful once more. The drama has died down, and life goes on, as it is prone to do. Stef: If you happen to read this, I just want to say that, in spite of anything that went down between us, I genuinely want to thank you. Regardless of whatever happened with us, you always made sure I was taken care of. I realized that specific detail is one of the most important things in the world, and for that, I want to thank you. For anyone else out there reading this, well... you specific people know who you are. For the casual reader, I just want to make sure that you remember to not sweat the small shit, and to make sure that your friends are true.

What inspired all of this, you may ask? Simple. There was a big storm here last night. A good, hard Florida thunderstorm, the first of the season. This morning, when the wind was still blowing hard and the weather was cool, the sky slightly cloudy still, I stepped outside for a Djarum Menthol before crashing for the... well, technically, day.
I stood outside, the wind blowing around me, cold concrete beneath my bare feet, and a bright blue sky, beneath the straggler clouds... and I realized...


I am home.

1. Do you snore?
Loud enough to wake the dead, apparently.

2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
Fighter.

3. What’s your worst fear?
The unknown.

4. As a kid, where you a lego maniac?
Totally.

5. What do you think of “reality” tv?
........ I try not to. They sure as hell don't.

6. Do you chew on your straws?
Not unless I'm hungry.

7. Were you a cute baby?
Probably not.

8. Is the single life for you?
Prefferably? No. Right now? yes.

9. What colour is your keyboard?
Black.

10. Do your sing in the shower?
If I have a song stuck in my head.

11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
Haven't had the chance. Totally would, though. Something about jumping out of a perfectly good airplane appeals to me.

12. Any secret talents?
Not really. Just some that many people don't know about because they haven't asked.

13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
Snow. Somewhere with lots and lots of snow.

14. Can you swim?
Yuppers.

16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko”?
Yep Owned it, until my sister took it and lent it to a friend that moved away.

17. Do you give a damn about the ozone?
Nope.

18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
317.

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
Badly.

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
Yep.

21. Are you a single child?
I wish.

22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
Electric. you can put random things into them.

23. What’s your stand on hunting?
Perfectly natural.

24. Is marriage in your future?
Down the road, sure.

25. Do you like your handwriting?
I love it.

26. What are you allergic to?
Stupidity.

27. When was the last time you said 'I love you?'
Don't remember. Months, at least.

28. Is Tupac still alive?
Who?

29. Do you cry at weddings?
Nope.

30. How do you like your eggs?
Cooked. Other than that, any.

31. Are blondes dumb?
Some, yes. Not all.

32. Where does the other sock end up?
Eaten by Murphy's Law.

33. What time is it?
8:56 pm

4. Do you have a nickname?
Probably, but I don't pay enough attention to them.

35. Is McDonald's disgusting?
Hell no.

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
3 hours ago.

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
Showers... or Jacuzzis.

38. Is Santa Claus real?
Yes. I am Santa Claus.

39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
Sure.

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
Lack of light itself? No. But I start to wonder about the unknown aspect of it.

41. What are you addicted to?
Caffeine, the internet, reading.

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
Depends on the mood.

43. Can you crack your neck?
Yuppers.

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Not to my knowledge.

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
None. Been out and about.

46. Is drug free the way to be?
Other than caffeine, yes.

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Like the dead.

48. What colour are your eyes?
Brown.

50. Do you like your life?
For the most part.

51. Who’s better: Stone Cold or The Rock?
Heh... Dwayne. Duh-waaaayyyyne.

52. Are you psychic??
No, simply over analytical to the point that I know or figure out things that I shouldn't.

53. Have you read "Catcher in the Rye"?
Nope.

54. Do you play any instruments?
Brass, all the way.

55. Have you ever stolen money?
Yep.

56. Can you snowboard?
Hah. Probably not.

57. Do you like camping?
Completely.

58. Do you snort when you laugh?
Nope.

59. Do you believe in magic?
Eh, yes and no.

60. Are dogs a man’s best friend?
Yup.

61. You believe in divorce?
Uhm... It's real. How can't you believe in it?

62. Can you do the moonwalk?
Badly.

63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
Everyone does.

64. Is it cold outside today?
...I live in Florida.

65. What was the last thing you ate?
Green Bean casserole ftw.

66. Do you wear nail polish?
Yes, but only while I'm in my miniskirt and halter top on those long Saturday nights... =rolls his eyes= No.

67. Have you ever been kissed?
Uh, yeah.

68. What's the most annoying TV commercial?
I ignore commercials.

69. Do you shop at American Eagle?
Nope. Wal-Mart all the way.

70. Favourite song at the moment?
30kft

71. When was the last time you had sex?
Last night.

72. Do you like your job?
HAH. No.

73. Do you like your classes in school?
Not in school.

74. How do you like your meat cooked?
Rrrraw... and wrrrriggling.

75. Do you like these surveys.
Occasionally.

About to head out to New Hampshire to hang with Beth and the Chrisis (Like a crisis, but... eviller). Regardless, I may not be responding or posting that much until the 30th (big suprise). Well, time to fly- almost literally (that's not until almost 8)!! Talk to you peoples later. ^__^

Okay, this one's gonna be short and sweet.

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To quote Tychus Findlay, the Marine in the cinematic trailer...
"Hell... It's about time."





YUUUUUUUSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay then. Gotta get my random update-age outta the way first before I start ranting.

Weehoo, computer class is over. Stef pwned half of the tests and is now Alphabet Soup, and I'm yet to pass one. -_- lol Eh, I'm working on it, though. Uhhm... Oh, yeah. I was also sick. And I hate being sick. 'Cause that's, like, the only time I get cold. It sucks. My diet since Tuesday has consisted of a single meal a day, half of which didn't want to stay in, and enough Gatorade to hydrate the Marching Band. Woohoo. >_> What else.... Oh! I'm heading to New Hampshire on vacation starting on this upcoming Tuesday. Funfunfun. Give me a chance to chill out a bit and let my head have a break from all the things that have been going down lately. Yarrgh, my head's still killing me.

Wow... Okay, so much for the rant. Got a call that made my head worse and took the fighting spirit outta me. lol Eh, read these articles, though. Post your thoughts in replies.

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